I'm looking forward to working on the bike some this weekend. Unsure how much I can actually do, but I have some thoughts on that and some lists I can look at and cross off before I need to stop for this reason or that one. I spent many months, and if truth be told, I bought this bike for the sole purpose (or a major one) of escaping some personal things going on that made it hard to sleep, or be calm, or breathe. Learning to get to another day or make it past this thought or that thought was challenging from time to time, and having something like this bike to work on, freak out, change up, whatever- well, it helped.
So, now, well... the personal stuff has taken a few left turns and some unexpected arrivals in these past few months. Some of them I didn't see coming, didn't plan for, didn't seek out as places I wanted to visit or move in to, but alas, there they are anyway. I guess, to (finally) get to the point here, I was a creature of habit during those nights in the garage and quite often listened to the same playlists or the same band. Each night, same band.
So now, there's less anguish over personal things. Those things have not been solved or resolved or redacted, but they are far less of a drain on the resources that are my brain and soul. And that's a really good thing- can I get an AMEN!
So I want to, this weekend, on purpose- listen to those same playlists. It's been several months that I've spent any actual time in that garage space, so it's been a little bit of time since I've heard that music. I'll be very curious when those tunes come up, the specific ones with those specific lines and those specific beats, that conjured up pictures of this girl or that sunset or them memories that seemed to haunt the brainwaves for all those many months. Now- they should be cleansing and healing.
We shall see...
Now, pass the 12mm spanner and let's get to work, people.
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